Ah, my Merlinesque friend, I relate to this. I was tired out of the gate. Still weary, after all this time, though I have experienced more peace since 2016 than the whole of this incarnation combined. Limited connections in this world, and inconsistent connections to higher, frequently results in despair, loneliness, and doubt. And then I remember the shadow I came to confront, and I am temporary fortified to take another step.

I wish you love and strength in your sojourn.