Anthony, my friend, I wonder about this, too. Stuggle might be a applicable. I would like to believe, contrary to popular skeptical beliefs that only 'crazy,' 'uniformed,' idots believe this stuff that indeed our government is comprised of inteligent, knowledgeable people who know this is real.

Assuming the latter, are they a part of it, or part of suppressing it? If they're suppressing, to what ends? Do our elected officials really know as much as the general public? Are they really in charge? I start going here, and my head spends into conspiracies. This is where I must apply the breaks in own thoughts. I just simply don't have the energy or the desire to sustain that. I don't think it's healthy.

Assuming that last part, if it's not healthy for me- I have to let go, to the degree that I can, and trust a higher 'good' power has this. I will still grapple, and if I have enough good folks around me they will remind, put that down- and focus on immediate pressence of mind. I am presently safe. Breathe. There are mysteries. I got these pieces scattered on the table. Sometimes they seem to fit. Sometimes I try to make them fit. After some exercises in futility, I sort a little futher.

And you're right, there are a lot of pieces on this table and more and more pieces are being put on the table and it's getting hard to keep up with all these pieces! I am not overwhelmed yet, but again- that question you ask here- I am like, how is the world not on the verge of euphoria because, OMG, this is real and it's right in our face and yet, we are either blind to it, or... what?

when the student is ready, the master presents? Did God present to Moses before Moses was ready? Was Moses just another milestone in humanity's evolution? Why Moses? Would it have been easier to move the lot of them if God spoke directly to all of them? Moses could hear, but the lot couldn't? they simply trusted and moved with?... Is that what this is? Trust, move forwards, our relationship with the Universe is present, and will be more as we mature into the right path?

Spirit feels like it's a part of this. I don't know how to separate it. So, yeah. Too verbose. Sigh. Yeah. There's a lot here!